Can't Take It Anymore

Seriously, I don't know why this bullshit keeps happening to me. I don't get why it all just can't stop. It's been going on for fucking 14 years and then finally, I thought everything was okay. But after this shitty week, I now think different.

I sound like a certain someone I used to know, complaining about my life, saying how shitty it is. But everyone, I would just love to tell you what exactly is wrong, but I can't. Not because I can't explain it, or that I don't know what's wrong, it's simply the fact that I don't WANT to tell you all, because I don't think it's your business.

But I have got a reason to complain and moan and kick and scream and cry. Some of you know why, some of you don't and that's the way it's going to stay. Usually by now I would say "Seriously, I can't take it anymore", but I'm going to do what I have done for the last 14 years.

Ignore it all.

Why care about it? Why keep stressing over it? It's not me doing the damage, and I'll get out of this okay, we all will. Well, most of us will.

Everything will be back to normal soon, then it's going to happen again, then it'll go back to normal again.. and so on, so fucking forth.

But I can deal with it. It's weird, this blog seems to get more optimistic the more I write. The main thing that really helps me get through these shitty times are my family obviously, and especially my friends.

I want to give a shout out to the ones who were there when I needed them.

Merissa, Jemma, Laura, Fiona, Aishling, Chris, Dylan and Shane.

You were all there for me when I needed you the most, even though some of you don't even realise it.

Even simple things like making me laugh helps guys! And I love you for that, for putting up with my bullshit, for continuing to talk to me on those rare occasions when I let you know I was depressed, and even the times when I didn't let you know.

I love you all, and I want you to know that.

No matter what happens between us all, you will all have a place in my heart.

Gay..but true :)

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