I'm dancing in the moonlight                               It's caught me in its spotlight..

Heyy everyone.I'm in a Thin Lizzy mood right now,they're making me happy so I'm just gonna keep listening to them.Cos being happy is awesome,fuck anyone who says that it's "over-rated".Being happy..it's an deadly feeling for obvious reasons.And anyone who says that it's not that great a thing obviously have never truly experienced the feeling.When you are deriously happy,and nothing anyone says can bring you down..well that's a glorious feeling and how dare anyone say it's not.

Right now,yeh I'm happy, and I can admit that.I'm not afraid to.I'm not going to go around pretending that everything's going to shit,when it's not.Yeh life isn't perfect right now but at this moment in time I'm aigh't.I could be happier,but you can always be happier.I'm pretty content with how I'm feeling right now.

Yeh tomorrow's a different day,and maybe everything will change and I'll turn into a depressed wreck but why think about tomorrow?

I've learned to make the most of what I got and not to worry about stupid fickle things.Okay yeh..I say that and I DO still worry and complain about random shit,but I'm trying my best.I'm not perfect,I'm sure you all know that by now but I'm just going to try and make the best of any situation I'm in and deal with shit if or when it's thrown at me.

And all of this came from listening to Thin Lizzy..It's amazing how music can make you feel.

R.I.P. Phil xx

Tonight there's gonna be a jailbreak
Somewhere in this town..

Minds Can Change Easily..But In This Case,Let's Hope Not =S

I'm in the business of misery,Let's take it from the top.
She's got a body like an hourglass that's ticking like a clock.
It's a matter of time before we all run out,
When I thought he was mine she caught him by the mouth.
I waited eight long months,She finally set him free.
I told him I couldn't lie he was the only one for me.
Two weeks and we had caught on fire,
She's got it out for me,But I wear the biggest smile.

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But, I got him where I want him now.
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now.
But god does it feel so good,Cause I got him where I want him now.
And if you could then you know you would.
Cause god it just feels so...It just feels so good.

Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change.
Once a whore you're nothing more, I'm sorry, that'll never change.
And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged.
I'm sorry honey, but I'm passing up, now look this way.
Well there's a million other girls who do it just like you.
Looking as innocent as possible to get to who,
They want and what they like it's easy if you do it right.
Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse!

I watched his wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving you
Just watch my wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving...

Thanks Lucy,for bringing that song to my attention haha. Luv yhuu xx

I Salute You

Neil Diamond,oh how do you make me so happy?

Fuck This,Fuck EVERYTHING

Everything I fucking do is always thrown back in my face.

When I try and help nothing good comes of it.

Nobody would fucking notice if I weren't here.

Do ask me please,why the FUCK do I even bother?

What's the point,what IS the fucking point? What good am I getting from this?

Nothing ever goes right, as self centred as that sounds.

So? I give up. I don't give a shit anymore.

Don't call for me cos I'm not fucking home. 

Oh How Tv Shows Make Us Feel Shit..

Hello there earthlings,I use the term loosely..
Well today I woke up to the sound of my brother hammering out the tiles in the bathroom.What a pleasant thing to hear at 10 in the morning.. So I went downstairs,desperate for somewhere to go where I wouldn't hear the wretched noise.So the sitting room seemed like quite a good place to me.

If only I knew that it would soon depress the shit outta me ><

I was watching Maury,desperate to have a glimpse at the lives of someone more unfortunate than me. But of course,it had to be one of the happier shows,you know the ones where they make people's lives better? Yes my dears,I hate those ones too.

So there was this one woman who was to be reunited with a man she was once in love with when she was 16.She was 36 now may I add.Anyway,she gained contact with him again through the wonder that is the internet.And it turned out that this man,whom she hadn't spoken to in 20 years felt the exact way she felt for him and when he came on the show he declared his love for her,proposed and yada yada you get the rest.

Why did this make me feel shit,I hear you ask.Well it's just the fact that..you know,I wish someone would care for me as much as those two cared for each other.They hadn't seen each other in 20 years and still their love for each other stood the test of time.How I wish something like that would happen to me..*insert dramatic pose here* Oh don't worry,I know that I'm only 14 (15 nearly may I add,as if that makes much of a difference) and that I have PLENTY of time to look for love,but it still got to me.Recently Keevs' love life hasn't been the best,and she's taking a break from it for awhile (unless of course someone just TOO amazing comes along..).And I know it sounds so sappy,and is such an idiotic thing to get remotely upset about but..it's times like these where seeing other people happy makes me..unhappy.

Oh how melancholy has this post become, "I hate seeing other people happy".

But it's not the fact that I'm not happy,I actually am.I have great friends..well,at the moment anyway.I love my family and you know,life is good at the moment.But there have been a few things during the last month or so that have knocked me down,and I'm still picking up the pieces.

Ah sure,things will be back to normal soon enough,as they always are.Keevs always has her ways of sorting things out..This time should be no different.

I Love You All
Especially You ;)
Toodles xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

OMFG I GOT NEW FRIENDS! I'm NOT Obsessed =P xx

Hey everyone yeh I'm never really go on this anymore but meh I feel like going on it today so..um..I am =]

Yeh recently I made some new friends, Nicky and Danny and I fucking love them! Yeh okay maybe I met them off the internet, but to be honest I've learned that that's where the best friends I have have come from =P So yeh I've met up with them a couple of times and they are such awesome guys and I fucking love them.

And Danny,I know I'm not supposed to mention this cos it makes us come close to tears whenever we talk about it,but he might have to move back to Singapore at the end of the year,depending on his exam results. If he leaves I will actually cry my heart out..as sad and emo as that sounds,but even though I've known him only a few weeks now he is a really good friend of mine and he means so much to me and I'd hate to see him leave.. Ughh I'm gonna stop talking about it now before I cry.

We're going to think happy thoughts from now on and pretend that he's not going anywhere,but just in case he does we're going to make the most of this summer and make sure that it's the best one that he ever has =] We love you Danny!

Hmm..what else..eh yeh I'm just gonna say boy troubles. Not gonna explain anything just going to say I am suffering from a heavy case of confusion right now.. 

My puppy has gotten bigger! I'd send you like a photo or something but guys,you know how retarded and shitty with technology I am..so..eh..maybe another time when my more intellectual friends are online and I can ask them how to do it =P

MISSA AND CHRIS ARE GOING OUT! They are actually soooooooooooo cute together it's unreal =) 

And at the moment I'm listening to Wan singing..he's actually really good =] But yeh I have no idea what he's doing right now and I'm kinda scared lol!!!!!

Okayys well eh I have no idea what the hell I'm typing,I'm just seeing how much I can type without having to stop and think and this is all I can get out so like yeh I'm gonna go now..... LoveYouAllSoFuckingMuchToodles!

And Missa you're the exception..ask me later ;) xxxxxxxxxxx

Sorry For Yeh,Nothing! =S

Apologies for the lack of posts recently,I've just forgotten to update this and I'm also a tad bit busy,it being the holidays and all. I've just been out with friends most days,in town and stuffs like.This summer has been pretty fun so far, apart from several unnecessary fights had with my friends,but I seriously couldn't be arsed going into the details :(

I also made up with one of my friends who I haven't talked to in months,and I'm glad we're friends again :)

I've started going out with this guy that I'm really happy with

And right now,I'm in my grandparents house as I'm going to work in the playschool out their backgarden til Thursday,to try and get SOME money XD


I also got a puppy the other day! It's a shih-tzu called Roxy(I didn't want to call it that though:( ). She was such a surprise though,cos I had no idea that we were getting a dog! XD

I love her soooo much though,she's like the cutest thing ever and she's only like 6 weeks old! O.O

Anywayys yeh,I'm soooo knackered so I'll update later cos there's some more shit that I need to talk about

LoveYouAll,EspeciallyYou;) xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Toodles xx