Oh How Tv Shows Make Us Feel Shit..

Hello there earthlings,I use the term loosely..
Well today I woke up to the sound of my brother hammering out the tiles in the bathroom.What a pleasant thing to hear at 10 in the morning.. So I went downstairs,desperate for somewhere to go where I wouldn't hear the wretched noise.So the sitting room seemed like quite a good place to me.

If only I knew that it would soon depress the shit outta me ><

I was watching Maury,desperate to have a glimpse at the lives of someone more unfortunate than me. But of course,it had to be one of the happier shows,you know the ones where they make people's lives better? Yes my dears,I hate those ones too.

So there was this one woman who was to be reunited with a man she was once in love with when she was 16.She was 36 now may I add.Anyway,she gained contact with him again through the wonder that is the internet.And it turned out that this man,whom she hadn't spoken to in 20 years felt the exact way she felt for him and when he came on the show he declared his love for her,proposed and yada yada you get the rest.

Why did this make me feel shit,I hear you ask.Well it's just the fact that..you know,I wish someone would care for me as much as those two cared for each other.They hadn't seen each other in 20 years and still their love for each other stood the test of time.How I wish something like that would happen to me..*insert dramatic pose here* Oh don't worry,I know that I'm only 14 (15 nearly may I add,as if that makes much of a difference) and that I have PLENTY of time to look for love,but it still got to me.Recently Keevs' love life hasn't been the best,and she's taking a break from it for awhile (unless of course someone just TOO amazing comes along..).And I know it sounds so sappy,and is such an idiotic thing to get remotely upset about but..it's times like these where seeing other people happy makes me..unhappy.

Oh how melancholy has this post become, "I hate seeing other people happy".

But it's not the fact that I'm not happy,I actually am.I have great friends..well,at the moment anyway.I love my family and you know,life is good at the moment.But there have been a few things during the last month or so that have knocked me down,and I'm still picking up the pieces.

Ah sure,things will be back to normal soon enough,as they always are.Keevs always has her ways of sorting things out..This time should be no different.

I Love You All
Especially You ;)
Toodles xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

OMFG I GOT NEW FRIENDS! I'm NOT Obsessed =P xx

Hey everyone yeh I'm never really go on this anymore but meh I feel like going on it today so..um..I am =]

Yeh recently I made some new friends, Nicky and Danny and I fucking love them! Yeh okay maybe I met them off the internet, but to be honest I've learned that that's where the best friends I have have come from =P So yeh I've met up with them a couple of times and they are such awesome guys and I fucking love them.

And Danny,I know I'm not supposed to mention this cos it makes us come close to tears whenever we talk about it,but he might have to move back to Singapore at the end of the year,depending on his exam results. If he leaves I will actually cry my heart out..as sad and emo as that sounds,but even though I've known him only a few weeks now he is a really good friend of mine and he means so much to me and I'd hate to see him leave.. Ughh I'm gonna stop talking about it now before I cry.

We're going to think happy thoughts from now on and pretend that he's not going anywhere,but just in case he does we're going to make the most of this summer and make sure that it's the best one that he ever has =] We love you Danny!

Hmm..what else..eh yeh I'm just gonna say boy troubles. Not gonna explain anything just going to say I am suffering from a heavy case of confusion right now.. 

My puppy has gotten bigger! I'd send you like a photo or something but guys,you know how retarded and shitty with technology I am..so..eh..maybe another time when my more intellectual friends are online and I can ask them how to do it =P

MISSA AND CHRIS ARE GOING OUT! They are actually soooooooooooo cute together it's unreal =) 

And at the moment I'm listening to Wan singing..he's actually really good =] But yeh I have no idea what he's doing right now and I'm kinda scared lol!!!!!

Okayys well eh I have no idea what the hell I'm typing,I'm just seeing how much I can type without having to stop and think and this is all I can get out so like yeh I'm gonna go now..... LoveYouAllSoFuckingMuchToodles!

And Missa you're the exception..ask me later ;) xxxxxxxxxxx